Hate is a strong word but really i wish there was a stronger one.

Really you want to know how im feeling?
Well i wish i knew how i felt, because nothing can describe what im feeling right now.

 

Seeing her face come to my door to do your dirty work was really the last straw.

I couldnt breathe, seeing her really just made me realise how pathetic you really are.

Shaking, crying, breathloss.. honestly why me?
What have i ever done to deserve this. All i did was love you and look what i get in return.

I never ever want to see you again.

You make me so sick.

I wish everybody knew what a monster you are.

These things you have done are so wrong.

Making a 3 page fucking statement about you is beyond where i imagined myself.

You are putting me through hell and unfortunately im the only one that has to deal with it, honey your no angel so stop feeding people lies.
Fuck you.

Its over. Im gone.

After everything we have been through together.
After everything you put me through.
You continue to push me away and do the same as you did last time?

You are the cruelest person alive, you have made me physically sick.

This time im not coming back.

Back to square one we go.

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what a pathetic awful lie.

For once you are telling the truth.

You wish you never knew me?


Who could ever think that one simple sentence could destroy somebody.

I need help.

These things you are telling me, saying to me, using against me arent ok.
This isnt right.
Its beyond wrong.
You need help just as much as i do.

I cant do this i just cant.

I wanna go back.

Walking along the beach together.

Even those little things i miss.

Holiday!

Finaaaaaaaaaaaaally im getting away from here.
Im going to make the most of this holiday and im going to do what i want and enjoy it.


I need to forget about the drama.
Time to spend time with my good mates.
Finally i can!
Yaaaaaay! i really love summer.

Thankyou for ruining my day.

Sometimes i just need some time to myself thats all i ask.

I didnt get any txts today.
I didnt have any thoughts today.
I didnt frown today.
Once i came home from work exhausted and just relaxed in the pool, i smiled to myself. For once i had peace.

Until mum and dad came home and i turned on my phone...

Fuck everything.

I need to be happy.
Im not a person that crys easily just becase someone called me a bitch.
I cry when im physically incapable of smiling anymore.
I cry when im actually sick because i dont have anybody to lean on.
Nothing goes right anymore.
Fuck it all.


You are ruining me.

I have never felt so alone, yet i still have you.

Waking up to hear your man say good morning beautiful.
Opening your eyes to see his smile and lips coming towards yours.
To get that slight morning chill, then to be brought closer to his body to warm you up.
Hearing i love you and a kiss on the forehead.

God i miss that.