Holiday!

Finaaaaaaaaaaaaally im getting away from here.
Im going to make the most of this holiday and im going to do what i want and enjoy it.


I need to forget about the drama.
Time to spend time with my good mates.
Finally i can!
Yaaaaaay! i really love summer.

Thankyou for ruining my day.

Sometimes i just need some time to myself thats all i ask.

I didnt get any txts today.
I didnt have any thoughts today.
I didnt frown today.
Once i came home from work exhausted and just relaxed in the pool, i smiled to myself. For once i had peace.

Until mum and dad came home and i turned on my phone...

Fuck everything.

I need to be happy.
Im not a person that crys easily just becase someone called me a bitch.
I cry when im physically incapable of smiling anymore.
I cry when im actually sick because i dont have anybody to lean on.
Nothing goes right anymore.
Fuck it all.


You are ruining me.

I have never felt so alone, yet i still have you.

Waking up to hear your man say good morning beautiful.
Opening your eyes to see his smile and lips coming towards yours.
To get that slight morning chill, then to be brought closer to his body to warm you up.
Hearing i love you and a kiss on the forehead.

God i miss that.

Its time for a new year.

Heres to 2010.
It was shit.
We made mistakes.
People we once knew turned into people we have to forget.
We cried.
We failed at things. 
We complained because we didnt get what we wanted.
Had broken hearts.
We searched for love and happiness and didnt succeed.
We got too drunk only because we wanted to be happy.

Heres to 2011.

It will be shit but we will turn it into something great.

We will cry only because we have found someone so perfect we wont let go of.

We will fail but only by learning where we went wrong.

Complaining will stop once we think of how lucky we actually are with what we have.

We will lose people but will make amazing friends along the way.

We may not find love immediately but once we are truely happy we wont have anything to search for.

We will be drunk but only because lifes a party and we are living in it.

So drink up.

Smile and laugh.

And remember lifes a rollercoaster and all you can do is sit there and enjoy the ride.





Nothing in life is easy. Absolutely nothing.

You only have three choices in life ...

Give up

Give in

Or give it all you got.

 



I cant go through this any longer.

Fuck this shit.
I just want everything to be better.
I hate not being able to feel anything.
I love you, i really do. I cant lose you not now.