Drama hurts.

The fireworks were incredible, just standing with my girls looking up i was having such a nice time. Then to make the night better we went to our mates party, just singing at the top of our lungs, dancing and stumbling  everywhere created so much laughter and was so much fun.

But why is it that there is always somehting to ruin your night?

As soon as you rung me telling me some other guy had stirred shit i was at breaking point, i hate this guy hes the biggest liar on earth, it made me feel awful because i knew you would believe it because it was you against the world.

I just wish you saw how i reacted, as soon as you spoke his name it meant trouble. I cried my eyes out, ran

through my mates party and punched the life out of that boxing bag.

I could not lose you, especially not like this.

I love you so much, i spent all night fighting for your love making sure you werent going to leave. I hate how people stir drama when it isnt true, because no matter what you do you have to make them erase it from their mind when everybody allready knows and believes it.

Unfortunately it all comes down to trust, and if there isnt any trust there isnt any love.

Im glad you didnt take what he said into consideration, and im so thankful you realised and used that trust you have in me. I would be nowhere without you and i cant let you go, especially when its somebody elses fault.

No matter what i am going to fight for our love.

Thats just the way it is.

Thats just the way it will always be.

No matter what you say i will always love you. No matter what you do i will always love you. No matter what ever happens to us i will always love you.

What is love?

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, and is your voice caught within your chest? - it isnt love, its like.

You cant keep your hands or eyes off of them am i right? - it isnt love, its lust.

Are you proud, and eager to show them off? - it isnt love, its pride.

Do you want them because you know theyre there? - it isnt love, its lonliness.

Are you there because its what everyone wants? - it isnt love its loyalty.

Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand? - it isnt love, its low confidence.

Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you dont want to hurt them? - it isnt love, its pity.

Do you belong to them bacause their sight makes you skip a heart beat? - it isnt love, its infatuation.

Do you pardon their mistakes because you care about them? - it isnt love, its friendship.

Do you tell them everyday that they are the only one that you think of? - it isnt love, its a lie.

Are you willing togive all of your favorite things for their sake? - it isnt love, its charity.

Does your heart ache and break when theyre sad?- then its love.

Do you cry for their pain, even when theyre strong? - then its love.

Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply that it hurts? - then its love.

Do you stay because a blinding incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there? - then its love.

Do you accept theyre faults because its a part of who they are? - then its love.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret? - then its love.

Would you give them your heart, your life, your death.

Think about it for a second...

Boy dont you know you cant escape me, darlin' cos you will always be my baby.

My Boyfriend...

Its official. We are together again and its so perfect.

I love you and i dont care what anybody else thinks! If they were true mates they would want me to be happy and all theyre doing is trying to ruin my happiness.

But fuck the haters cos im in love. Always have been with you.

I love callin you my boyfriend now, and who thought that after 14 months of us being together then 5 months of a rocky break up we would be back together? well to be honest, i hoped we would always be back like we used to be. Now we are i couldnt be any happier.

They say there's plenty more fish in the sea? well they are wrong because to find the perfect guy instantly and all the rest to be horrible, theyre aint no more fish! 

Hes my only fish. and i dont want him to ever swim away :)

 

Braden Riordean Cargill

Im in love with you.

 

Its happening again.

I promised my heart.

I promised my mind.

I promised my family.

I even promised  my body that this would not happen again, especially with the same boy.

Well it has.

It may be wrong but it feels so right. 

You make me want to not give a fuck about anybody else just you. I always drop anything to see you and im happy doing that. No matter how many times ive been with you i cant wait till i can see that gorgeous smile each time i have to go.

What happened to us is now in the past and it feels as if it never happened.
Nobody understands what we have between each other they just think that we like each other, and thats it. What a big underestimate because what im feeling right now i know people write novels about, swim the ocean for, search the world for, see movies about, and dream they could feel.

I see you and i want to leap into your arms.

I could sit there with you for hours in silence just staring at you and have the best time of my life.

You grab my hand and i dont want you to untwine your fingers. 

When you say those 3 words i say them back, not because you said it first but because i never want you to forget.

When im laying next to you kissing at you while you run your hands over my body i just dont want you to stop.

Just seeing you for 5 minutes makes my whole day even week.

You are my world.

You smile i smile back while admiring yours.
You laugh i contiinue to laugh and realise how happy you make me.
You hold my hand i hold yours and dont want to let go.
You squeeze me tight i squeeze back shut my eyes and dont want to let go.
You drop your plans for me i already make plans with you when you dont know.
You kiss me i continue to kiss you and feel every feeling in my body.
You miss me i miss you while your on my mind every second of the day.
You call me to say goodnight i call back just to hear you say you love me one more time.
You have an amazing dream about me and i dream of you every night.
You say im all you live for when i live for you and would die for you, aslong as i got to be with you for those last moments and hear you say "Jess i love you too" just that one last time.

Fuck what they say i love with you, and nothings gonna stop me from falling harder.




I pretend im okay. And when im with you i pretend like you didnt break the fuck out of my heart. I tell you i love you not because you say it first, but because i do.

You complete my life, my heart, my body and my soul. I love you.

The weekend we had together was spectacular.
Skin to skin.
We danced.
Our smiles, our laughs.
Hand in hand.
Our eyes never parted.
The body heat.
We kissed.
We sang our hearts out.
Partied till the sun rose.
Eventually we slept.
Your body next to mine.
The soothing kisses and breath on my neck.
I woke up to that same look in your eyes, and those same words that left your lips "baby i love you."